3.8.03
A lot of my anger comes from myself. And I have a low tolerance. So I hate saying things more than twice, unless I know you're just kidding. But if you ask me something, and I answer and you ask me the same thing again, I still answer. But another time or more is just getting me pissed off.
Like the time when I went to Bollinger Canyon after the movie with Steph, Chris, etc. I called my brother to see where he was because I wanted to avoid being yelled at because I wasn't where I was supposed to be, and I asked my brother if he wanted me to go to dinner with them or wait for them at Bollinger and he said I don't care so I asked to speak to my dad because I didn't want to get in any more trouble because I get yelled at too much as it is.
I said, Hi Dad. I'm at bollinger canyon elementary school right now, do you want me to wait for you here or go to dinner with my friends?
-What? Aren't you with mom? Where's mom?
"Mom let me have the day off. She said I could go to the movies with my friends today. I'm at Bollinger Canyon Elementary right now, do you want me to go to dinner with my friends, or wait here for you?"
-Where are you?
"I'm at Bollinger Canyon Elementary school right now. Do you want me to go to dinner with my friends or wait here for you??"
-Well aren't you with mom? Where are you???
..... seriously. Get a hearing aid or learn english. I told you repeatedly where I am and why I wasn't with mom.
And today, my mom wanted me to go with her and my dad to show her clients a frickin house. I've seen enough houses in my life time. I don't really want to go with your clients to go see a house that's 30 minutes away. She wanted me to go to Anita's house. I don't want to go to Anita's house. Don't frickin make me. I want to stay home for once. Do nothing. think nothing. Not be frustrated by your not understanding what I do and don't want to do.
She was like, well were not going to Anita's house until later. You can learn to look at houses with me. It's not like I don't know how to show houses. I've been with you enough times to do it in my sleep. It's not that hard either. I've made the phone calls. I've looked up directions. It's cheese.
"I don't want to go, Mom."
-Come on, keep me company. First off, you have at least 3 other people with you and it's not like we talk about anything anyway. Plus we are with each other 5/7 of the days, not including at home.
-When I'm dead, you're going to want to hang out with me. And you're not going to be able to because I'm already dead. WHAT THE HECK!? Liek THAT is going to make me want to go. Frickin A, don't put me in a frickin guilt trip because you want me to do something that's not going to help me in the future or something I don't want to do.
God, I hate how she uses that all the time when she wants me to go somewhere. I don't frickin want to go. I want the day off. To myself. They didn't even take my aunt with them. I want to be alone for once.
Then she called an hour ago to tell me to talk to Anita and ask her if she wanted to sleep over. God. If you notice a pattern, when does she ever want to, without you saying come on. Even then she says no. There's no point in even asking her because I know the answer. Heck, I TRIED telling her that she didn't want to go.
And she was like, tell her that you are going to make cookies. First off, we don't even have a measuring cup and I don't want to ruin anything, because I have already, and plus like THAT is going make her jumping for joy.
Making cookies is boring. It's not really a two person job unless you want to make two batches... or want them to help you put the cookie dough on the pan. It's NOT a two person job... at least for me.
and they yell at me for always giving them an attitude. Yes, I shouldn't give them an attitude, but you know what? They bring it on themselves. I tell them something, and they always ask me over and over again within 5 minutes what it is. Come on. They aren't stupid. They just don't listen to me.
2.8.03
> Saturday: A longgg day....
I woke up at 8 to take a shower and so I would be awake to wake up Chris and check to see if Felicia was awake and everything. After my shower, my mom was yelling at me and she said something about me not eating breakfast and how I can't do that and crap... And how I'm unhealthy. Frick I drank like 6...7 bottles of water today!!!
Well, Feli told me that John was going to come over early... and around 9.20 I was wondering why he wasn't here yet so I find out that he went to the PARK. So... went to the park and waited for Feli to come and stuff....
Chris picked us up and we headed to Orinda. Hahaha I was the 'navigator.' I wasn't paying attention and we almost missed the place we were supposed to go to.
Picnic/BBQ.... hm... yummy food.
I didn't eat a whole lot of food... just like 'healthy chips.' They were actually rather tasty. =D Mm.. and I had a lot of bite size White Chocolate Chip Cookies... oh man.. heck of good. Mm..
Spent a lot of the time with Feli and John in the car. John fell asleep.... and Feli was afraid to wake him up because he was grabbing his arm then fell asleep... but she got out...
Oh man.... at the picnic, I had like 6-7 bottles of water. I peed like 4 times at the picnic. Oh man... it was funny because I would go to the car and just talk and then I would tell Felicia and John that I had to go pee... and they would say you have to go pee.... again?! Hahahaah. Oh man, it was great.
Chris and I had a water fight. Hahahahahahaha. I got him wet a little on the back, but I was close to the car so I ran into the car and he wouldn't want his car to stink like a crapper, so he couldn't get me wet.... hahahahah. A couple hours later, I got him wet and I ran, but he got me wet from the back, but I got him back, but he poured water down my shirt, from the back and down the front of my shirt. Hahahahaha. But then he had to go compete in the CAPAlympics (he and Ryan won! Hahahahah) and he was sitting down, tying his leg together with Ryan, for the 3 legged race, which they won by a LOT, and Felicia gave me her bottle, which was 3/4 of the way full, so I poured that on his head and it got his whole shirt wet. Hahaha, I ran and he told Felicia that he would get me back.... but he never did because he didnt' want to get his car wet. So I won. Hahha. ^^
John woke up and stayed up for like 30 minutes and during this time I had to pee once and Felicia and John fell asleep for about 45 minutes... or less..
Pretty much all we did at the picnic...
> While Chris was driving, we wanted to scare Felicia and he tried to make his car shake by going too fast... since he has a pimpin van... haha. But stupid slow cars didn't help... so we didn't really do it.. but he did do his crazy driving and that scared her. :-D
On the way to Cafe Tapioca, I had to pee heck of badly... and Payless's bathroom was OUT OF ORDER... so I had to hold it in and I was ready to piss my pants... Oh my gosh. I was laughing too which didn't help AT ALL.
I got Green Apple Smoothie... mmm. Good job Felicia. But I couldn't drink it until I went to the bathroom because i knew I would probably pee.... and when I got to Felicia's house... her door was locked and no one was home... and all the windows were locked, so she went throw the doggy door going to the garage, but the garage door leading into the house was LOCKED. Thank GOODNESS John has long arms and got to unlock the door..... I would've died.
So Chris and John left... and I stayed with Felicia! Took pictures that look bad... oh man.... Hahahha. -_-.... I peed like 3 times at her house too...
Felicia wanted to try Tapioca Express's Spicy Chicken. So Edwin, Felicia and I went to pick up Nat to go to Union City. In Nat's driveway my mom said that she was on the way to pick me up and... er.... she yells too much.... Gr..
She didn't know who Felicia was even though I've been there so many frickin times. And I always have to tell them that she's the one I went to Reno with. Come on you would think that you would have better memory than that... you know _________ frickin well that you always think I hang out with him frickin A.
Well I went to Union City anyway because I lied and said I left already. Nat and Edwin are funny. Then Felicia put a dirty thought in my mind about my BROTHER on the way home and I wanted to barf. I tried the Spicy Chicken and considering I can't take anything spicy... my mouth was burning for 15-20 minutes. Hahaha. It was good though. :-D
When I was on Crow Canyon, my dad called me and was like where are you? It's late.... at like 10.20 Not that late... Erg.
Plus, if they had told me that they were going to be on their way just a little bit earlier, I wouldn't have been already in the car, on the way to Union City... but I can't be pissed about that because they were working, but it's not my fault that they weren't there yet and that it takes a while to get to Union City.
I came home and already pissed like 3 times.... =X
> My parents keep interrogating me. I bet you they think I'm going to get into drugs even though I'm apart of Youth to Youth... the drug free crap. Ugh.... pisses me off. And I bet you that they think every guy I hang out with I either like or they like me or we're going out. Frickin A, is there no such thing as being good friends with the opposite sex anymore? Geez.
I hang out with John WITH Felicia.... and they even met John, they gave him a ride home twice.. And they are all who's John? My friend? Who's your friend? John. What the heck is that about.
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7.7.03
I need to live near someone that I talk to a lot so when it's like 2 AM they will be up with me outside walking at night... talking the night away.
...the one time I hate where I live. I gotta learn to be more open.. heh.
4.7.03
> Okay, I think it's going to be a daily routine to update this thing now because Xanga isn't working with me on this computer, and I normally post at around this time.. so I gotta resort to Blogger. Whatever. =D
Let's see what I did today...
> So, my mom comes in my room around 9-9.15 AM. I was like... >_- and all tired and groggy. She gave me the phone and was like, did you tell your friend to wake you up? And I said yes. And she said, Why? What are you doing today? Where are you going? ...stupid interrogations.. =X. ANyway, so she gave me the phone and I said hello? And he said hello! And I said "thank youu." and he said "you have to get out of bed you know." And I said "Whyyyy?!" and he said "because you told me to wake you up so you could watch Saved by the Bell!!" And I said "ugh.. fine.." Then he said, "OKay, get out of beddd." And I said "I'm going, I'm going." I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and all that good stuff. Then I went to watch some t.v. I think..
So I was watching Saved by the Bell and my mom was yelling.. as usual. No biggie. Lala. Continued watching t.v. Then I had a white peach. Mmm. Then I watched some more Saved by the Bell. Good fun. Kinda.
After, I ate some cereal and drank my vitamins... something I haven't done in ages. Haha. Continued my t.v. watching.
Then I went to my parents' room to watch their t.v. and go on the computer. talked to... Nini T. =D After talking to Nicole, I decided to watch some more t.v. and cleaned my closet a lil and folded clothes.
Then Chris Fuller called. And he sounds a heck of a lot like Jeremy Lee. I was like.. *.* Jer? And then I remembered I was tlaking to Chris. BUt it was great fun. Chris is hilarious. So I caught up with him for an hour and 10 minutes (the phone timer is very useful. ^^)
Chris Young called while I was talking to Chris Fuller and he asked me what I was doing today and I said nothing... I'm gonna stay at home until you're off work to go hang out. And he said, oh so you're not doing anything? And I said no. And I asked him what he was doing and he said that he was on his lunch break and I said oh cool! And was telling him places to go eat then I got off the phone with him since i was still on the phone with Chris Fuller. Then the doorbell rang and I realized that Chris Young was visiting me! And I said "I bet you that's Chris at the door right now." And Chris Fuller said "It's not me" And it was great times getting him confused.
So Chris came to hang out with me for a while at my house.. he played the piano and I was on the phone with Chris Fuller. And I asked Chris what time he had to be back at work and Chris Fuller kept getting confused so I had fun with that... and Chris Young told me that he was already off and I wasn't expecting that response so I said "WHAT?!?!" and spit out my gum in the process. HAHAHHAA.
Both Chris's thought it was gross, but I personally thought it was hilarious. I was laughing so hard I had to go pee. Hahah. Wee. After that, Chris Fuller had to go because his lunch was calling him. Hehehehehe. Then I called Felicia and asked her if it was okay if we stopped by so I could give her my stained paints and my shirt... (I discovered it today...). We first went to Starbucks because Chris was craving some. So he got a vanilla Creme Frap and he got me a tazoberry even though I didn't want it... but he's stubborn.. but then again me chris, and feli are all stubborn, so it's all good. =D We got our yummy drinks, then went to Feli's.
However, when we were waiting for our drinks, Chris saw this CD and it said Peter Yorn. And he glanced at it really quickly so he saw 'Porn' HAHAHAH. Oh man good times {{laugh}}
So we went to her house and 'kicked it' for 40 minutes or so. Had some good fun. Talked about people. Chris said that he has bigger boobs than this one girl that me, nicole, Felicia, Christine, Catherine, and now chris, make fun of. Oh man.. good times good times. Felicia's monitor is now on the ground, so she sits on the ground while she times... it seems a lil uncomfy, but that's what laziness gets you. Hehe. After a while, I had to be home at 3.30 but whatever, I screwed that rule, and went to Borders!
I went to borders, and got Nicole The Perks of Being a Wallflower. And in between looking for the book and getting in line, I tried to call her to see if she was actually home, but her house line was busy and she didn't answer her cell. However, I figured someone would be home since her line was busy, so we stopped by her house. I gave her the book and she gave me The Dangerous Lives of Altar Boys. I'm trying to read more.. because I don't read anymore and I used to be a bookworm.. seriously. In like 4th grade, I would get a book and read it ALL the time. Even during dinner. My parents had to make me stop reading. It was insane. Now they can hardly even get me to open a book. Haha. I can OFFICIALLY say that I know what nicole's house looks like now. And I can now have a vision of her talking to me on her computer while I'm talking to her on mine. Hehe. I like to vision people and know what their surroundings are like. Otherwise, I vision them in my old condo house because.. I'm weird. =D
After making fun of the same girl that we were making fun of at Feli's house. Haha. Isabelle is so cute. She remembers me! And I think she likes Chris too. =D He's good with people... good people person. Yay. So Chris did his stitch move. =D Yay. IT was good fun. And I got to look around the house. Wee. I had fun. =D Then.. at around 5, I figured I should be heading home, so we headed home.. after like 3 other attempts to leave. Heheheh. We always ended up getting sidetracked.. OMG I'm reminding myself of my parents and their friends when they are talking. They talk and talk on the couch. Then when it gets late, they say okay we should go it's late. And they stand up... then start talking even more. And head toward the door. Then in the doorway, they talk and talk and talk and take forever to leave. Hahaha. Asian parents!
> I got home around 5.15 and had a message from my dad and he was like bella call me. And I was like.. crap, I don't know what time he called! So I decided to call AFTER Chris left. I chilled with Chris for another hour or so. And during that time.. he tried to get me to do a push up and I said no. and he said I would, but I'm afraid of blowing chunks. ANd I was afraid he was going to throw up on me... -_- inside joke. =D
> Chris left and what did I do? I WATCHED TV! =D I have to wait for me to get my copy of The Perks of Being a Wallflower before I can read The Dangerous Lives of Altar Boys because Nini said so. So I watched some T.V. Oh and I called my daddy too.
I said, "Daddy, did you call me?"
And he said "No." And I should've just said oh and stopped there. But I said I just got your message. ANd he said oh yeah. Blah blah. I told a lil white lie and told him I got home at 4.30 and he said that he called at 5 and I said oh, I didn't get it. balh blah. And he said oh okay. bye. Then he yelled at me when he got home and said I shouldn't break a promise when I didn't even break a promise. ><
I pretty much watched T.V. for 3 hours. Then I went online and talked to people for a while. Told Jer about my... gullibleness... had a few laughs. Wee.
> Chris Fuller called me a nerd and a geek because I have practically the same routine everyday.. =X Meanie.
> I want to get The Perks of Being a Wallflower TODAY! But I don't know if they are going to give it to me today(Friday) since it's a holiday and all. Poop. I hope that they are nice and they give it to me.. but if not then I guess I'll have to resort to getting it on Saturday... =\
2.7.03
Hi Nini. You're the only one that still reads this. :-D Wee. Hahah. I was on the phone with Chris like just now and I was bored so I was making weird noises and he was like "are you having rino sex?" and I said "yes." hahaha and then I said "I need to take a shower." and he said "Is that an invitation?" And I siad "haha yes." and he said "ew! shower with mui.' haaha
Haha good times with Chris. =D
Xanga on this computer doesn't work so I need to blog here when I'm on this computer. Wee.
I cannot Juggle. I thought juggle was a dance. >< Sorryyyy. I FORGOT I haven't heard the word in AGES. Hahaa. =X And I NEED to buy Harry Potter 5. Wee.. I hope someone will take me today or tomorrow... =\
> > > 1. WHAT IS YOUR NAME? Bella Chang> > >
> > > 2. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Plaid reddish pinkish PJ pants
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> > > 3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? 112 - I Will Be There
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> > > 4. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream... Mmmm
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> > > 6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
>Blue all the way> > >
> > > 7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? A little breezy and sunny
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> > > 8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? I want to say Kurt... so Kurt.
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> > > 9. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE
> > SEX? ...that would attract me... their personality
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> > > 10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? Yes, she's my cousin
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> > > 11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? Eh, I had a crappy night, so it's turning into a crappy day and I have ASL today... ><
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> > > 12. FAVORITE DRINK? Anything
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> > > 13. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? I don't drink
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> > > 14. FAVORITE SPORTS? Soccer and tennis
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> > > 15. HAIR COLOR? brown-dark brown
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> > > 16. EYE COLOR? brown
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> > > 17. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Yes
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> > > 18. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES? Bruce - 27 Can - 20 Tina - 20 (yes they are twins..)
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> > > 19. FAVORITE MONTH? Any month... April?
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> > > 20. FAVORITE FOOD? Edible food
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> > > 21. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Italian Job
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> > > 22. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? I don't have one
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> > > 24. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? Of course, Everyone is.
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> > > 26.SUMMER OR WINTER? Winter...because I like it being colder than warm... but Summer because I get more time with my friends.
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> > > 27. HUGS OR KISSES? Hugs
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> > > 28 RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? relationships... long ones.
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> > > 29. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Chocolate
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> > > 30. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK? I'm not sending it to anyone but Anita.
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> > > 31. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Hello ^
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> > > 32. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Hello. ^^
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> > > 33. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? Um.. what?
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> > > 34. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? I just bought perks of being a wallflower and lullaby and hopefully later today or sometime soon I'll buy Harry Potter
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> > > 35. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? "Go Away" Auction Pad (seriously)
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> > > 36. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? I don't know.. Monopoly?
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> > > 37. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? Hm... stay home... play games.
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> > > 38. FAVORITE SMELLS? Rose/flowers.. warm vanilla sugar.
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> > > 39. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE? No
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> > > 40. WHO INSPIRES YOU? Oy.... long list... Christine, Catherine, Nicole, Felicia... so many others.
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> > > 41. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN? buttered
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> > > 42. FAVORITE CAR? I don't have one... any NICE looking car...
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> > > 43. FAVORITE FLOWER? Roses
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> > > 44. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? 1
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> > > 45. CAN YOU JUGGLE? What the crap is juggle? ><
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